wake up before fajr {the dawn prayer} to eat traditional moroccan foods: siloh, m'simmin, chorba, tamar, it's 4:40 am. we sit and watch the news, three tractor trailers trashed on the san mateo bridge. promised myself i would devote myself to divine service this ramadan, and i have only devoted myself to ego service. i was told by the imam to "let ramadan fast you", good advice, hard to follow. today is a lazy day, the self only wants to lounge and sleep. fasting only from food is not what ramadan is about. it's about losing yourself in nearness to God's mercy, which is everywhere, and retreating from the inspirations of the nafs, the lower self. God has promised to answer whatever supplication His servants make at the break of the fast, iftar, right after sunset. i hope in the days remaining, the inspiration comes to draw closer to my Creator and to lose myself in contemplation of Him, and to take away from blessed month wisdom, excellence, a higher station, and a heart overflowing with nur, light.
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